Sunday, April 13, 2008

The Diagnosis

April 10, 2008 – Day 868

I went to the clinic this morning and did blood tests for both malaria and dengue. It turns out that I have dengue and not malaria. That was a good thing because dengue passes through your system and doesn't stay long-term whereas malaria might. Unfortunately, that means that I didn't need to take the malaria treatment, but there shouldn't be any long-term complications from that either. I went to a doctor who told me I should be fine in a few days, but there was no medicine to give me.

I gave going home another long thought, and decided that it was time. What else did I have left to prove? I wasn't enjoying myself as much anymore and was simply putting off the inevitable. I used to feel like I might as well be dead to this world, but now I realize that's not true. I'm the one who has abandoned everyone else, not the other way around. I bought a one-way ticket back to Milwaukee from Cancun on the 19th of April, exactly one and a half years since I was last in the US. That would give me just enough time to pass through Belize for a few days and head up the coast to Cancun. It will be good to be back.

4 comments:

Paul J said...

Ginger and I just watched the movie "Into the Wild" a couple weeks ago. The parallels to your experience and your statements in this post are so obvious that I am almost ashamed of this sentence.

I welcome you home.
Paul J.

Anonymous said...

Wow--I'd been wondering what was up! What a nightmare--literally--just keep breathing and regain your strength...Cindy Macrafic

Anonymous said...

I am grateful to hear you are feeling better and happy to hear you are coming home! We all miss you very much!!! We will have a party but I promise it won’t be as bad as your sickness or dream... no cockroaches and only mildly painful... with all your family gushing love all over you:)

love ya chrissy

Moosekahl said...

I'm so excited you are coming home! I'm driving to Milwaukee tomorrow but will be entrapped at the convention I'm attending. I'll hang out though next month when I'm there. Can't wait to give you a hug!